I have lived my life for the last 14 years in constant pain, regret and debilitating bitterness.
This life no longer serves me.
Forgiveness is letting go of the suffering of the past, releasing the negative emotions that do not support you.
To my father, I know we did not always have the best relationship. I can see now how you were trying to protect me and love me in the only ways you knew how. I forgive you for all the things you have done and thank you for making me stronger. I will always keep a special place for you in my heart and my only regret is that I am not able to say these words to you in person; I love you.
To my second oldest sister, I know the last 10 years we have not spoken and for that I am truly sorry. I should have been more open to you and given the love and support that you needed. I hope that we can mend our relationship. I am so happy for you and your husband and I can’t wait to meet your two babies!
To my daughters father, I owe you the biggest thank you for leaving me to take care of our child. Without you, I would not be the person I am today. I am sorry for not contacting you back the day you showed up at my work and left me a message to talk about our child. I was young, scared, and angry over what happened. I am ready to talk and I will be looking for a way to get in contact with you. I would like to take the first steps in bettering our relationship so my daughter can know her father.
To my aunts, uncles and cousins thank you for pushing me to be the best person I knew how. You did not understand the life I was living and that is ok. We come from different paths and your reality was different than my own. I will work on bettering our relationships and showing you what it means to be my family.
To my friends, current and past, I know I may not have always been the easiest. If you knew me at a time when I had much to learn, please understand I was doing what I thought was best. I bulldozed right over you, with no regards to your feelings, and words cannot express how sorry I am to have put you through that. If we no longer speak, please know I think of our friendship every day and send you love and blessings in the highest. For those of you who have been by my side through thick and thin, you are my family and you are stuck with me now!
To my middle sister, thank you for being the sister I never wanted when I was young and the one I cannot live without when I am old. You are one of my best friends and I am grateful to have you in my life. Your support means the world to me and I cannot wait to continue to grow with you to see where life takes us!
To my mother, you are my rock. You have taught me how to be strong and survive. Thank you for helping at the times I needed it the most. My life would not be the same if I did not have you by my side. I am so blessed that my daughter can call you her grandma.
And last to my daughter, you are the light of my life. You are wise beyond your years and I can see amazing things for you. There are times we may fight and you might find me to be that annoying mother, but I will always love you unconditionally and unapologetically. I will always be here to help you, just like your grandma helped me. You will always be my baby and I am looking forward to continue to watch you grow and turn into a beautiful woman. I want you to know you can do anything and do not let anyone ever tell you different. Go after your dreams, be wild, lust many, love once. No pressure on your father, you know what is right for you and I support you in your decision 100% of the way. I love you with all my heart.
Life is taking us all on a journey for reasons we may not yet understand and I am so thankful to have you all in my journey.
Hoʻoponopono is the Hawaiian practice of forgiveness that can be done by repeating these 4 simple phrases.
I’m sorry, please forgive me, I love you, Thank you
I’m sorry, please forgive me, I love you, Thank you
I’m sorry, please forgive me, I love you, Thank you
I’m sorry, please forgive me, I love you, Thank you
